CELEBRATE THE DIFFERENCE. A WORKING TITLE, A HOOK, A LITTLE SONGBIRD FOR EVERYDAY LIVING. TEACH, REPEAT, RE-PROGRAM, RECONDITION. OH THE WONDERS OF SELF AWARENESS . IF HAPPINESS IS WITHIN THE REALMS OF THIS TEXT THEN I AM SAVED.I MOVE ON.
IAMX SAVED MY LIFE. I HAVE THOUGHT AND MOANED AND FOUGHT AND DOUBTED BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY FORWARD FOR ME. POWER IS IN THE DETAILS AND ABSTRACT STREAMS OF CONSCIOUSNESS ARE STUFFED FULL OF DETAILS. CHAOS IS POWERFUL. LOVE IS CHAOS. HATE IS SIMPLER, EASIER.
I AM FEELING A LITTLE DAVID LYNCH IN MY SOUL THIS WEEK. THE KING OF REALITY AND HORROR IN MY OPINION. HE MAKES THE MUNDANE OOZE WITH UNBEARABLE WEIGHT AND PURPOSE. HE ALSO MEDITATES. I MEDITATE TOO. IN MY FUTILE, LAZY, NOTHING WAY I HAVE PROLONGED STATES OF BALANCE. MEDITATION. HAPPINESS? IN THAT IN BETWEEN THERE ARE NO QUESTIONS. I CAN SWITCH OFF THE CLOCK.
IT DOESN’T LAST. BUT THEN IF THAT IS UNDERSTOOD YOU CAN SEE IT AS THE OVERALL BALANCE OF THE BIGGER PICTURE AND THAT WORKS TOO. DECISIONS MUST BE MADE. I AM VERY GOOD AT THE HUGE LIFE CHANGING DECISIONS BUT FUMBLE THE SMALL ONES. THE ONES THAT MAKE THE WORLD GO AROUND. THAT I NEED TO MASTER.
IN ONE CLEAR IMAGE I SAW MYSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF AN EAST GERMAN BACKWATER, CLAWING FOR TRANQUILITY. BELONGING AND HIDING OUTSIDE THE CITY. LIVING WITH THE STINKING WILD BOAR AND FORGIVING THEM FOR BEING ANIMALS. I LOVE ANIMALS BUT SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT THE FUCK I AM DOING WITH THIS LIFE PROJECT.
AT LEAST MY STUDIO IS OPERATIONAL. I CAN FINALLY START THE FINISHING OF IAMX3.
