WHERE AM I? I AM WRITING. I WILL COME OUT TO PLAY WHEN THERE ARE MORE THINGS TO HEAR, SEE AND SAY. FOR NOW I STEAL A TINY MOMENT TO REFLECT A LITTLE.
MAKING AN ALBUM IS DISORIENTATING, MESSY, LOVELY. THERE IS A CALM AND SOBRIETY REQUIRED. FINISHING THINK OF ENGLAND ON A THURSDAY THEN RELEASING IT ON A FRIDAY WAS A TESTIMENT TO THE POWER OF INDEPENDENCE AND RESTRAINT. LETTING SOMETHING GO UNTESTED. BLIND FAITH AND ALL THAT. MAYBE JUST IMPATIENCE. I FEEL THERE IS DEEP TRANSFORMATION IN WHAT I AM DOING. THE BEAST NEEDS TO BE CONTROLLED AND IN TIME I WILL BE THANKFUL FOR IT.
SOMETIMES I LOOK AT IT ALL IN WONDER. SOMETIMES I LOOK INTO THE WINDOW AND EVERYTHING IS BLOWN OUT OF PROPORTION. I EXPLODE INTO A BILLION OVERSENSITIVE SELF AWARE PIECES. I AM ANGRY, I HATE AND THEN I FORGET. WHAT NONSENSE. I FIGURE IF I JUST KEEP MOVING DOWN THE STREET AND DON’T LOOK INTO THE WINDOWS THINGS WILL BE DONE AND LIFE WILL MOVE FORWARD. THERE IS NO OTHER WAY FOR ME.
I WANT TO BE OLD AND WISE AND RELAXED ABOUT FUCKING UP. I WANT TO ENJOY FUCKING UP. UNTIL THEN I WILL HAVE TO FEED AN INFANTILE DESIRE TO BE LOVED AND DO IMPORTANT THINGS.
I WISH SOMETIMES I WANTED TO DEVOTE MY LIFE TO CHARITY BUT HUMANS ARE NOT REPAIRABLE AND I AM TOO WEAK AND DISTRACTED TO HELP. I AM JUST HERE TO INTERPRET AND POINT FINGERS. END OF STORY. ON A POSITIVE NOTE, I DISCOVERED SOMEONE HAS MADE A FEDERICO FELLINI MYSPACE SITE. HUNDREDS OF ADORABLE SNAPSHOTS AND QUOTES. PLEASE GO AND LOOK AT A TRUE VISCERAL UNCOMPROMISING CREATOR. HE WAS A TRASHY MAN. LIVING, SHITTING, LOVING, SHOWING. I TAKE GREAT COMFORT IN SEEING HIS FILMS. I SEE A BIT OF HIM IN US.
LIKE HIM, IAMX IS NOT GLAM. IAMX IS CIRCUS.
IT’S SOMETIMES EASY TO FORGET.
